i'm back.
I'm not sure i like deviantart.
oh well.

went on a collage tour of PCAD.
the programs looked great, i want to go there
they looked at my portfolio.
wasnt the best review. though i am only a sophmore in HS.
he said i needed more drawings and like use of color or something. I want to do photography, not drawing.
whatever. he also said my focus in my pictures were too centerd on the center of the picture. i agreed with that.
i'm pretty sure he was high though, which i dont care because it makes it easier for me to talk to him, and vise versa.

so basically im a failure.

Well, i have the flu. I realized how much throwing up sucks. It's the grosest thing ever.
I was looking at other people's photography on here and on myspace and i started to feel bad. haha. I wonder if this is what god wants me to do in life. I feel like..if he did then i would be like amazing. But i guess it takeshard work. i cant just expect it to come to me.

I really like this band. [link]

um my dads off house arrest.
i don't care who knows anymore. i never really did.
tonight we're going out to Cactus Willies to celebrate.
I'm pretty surprised, hes doing really well. Lets just hope it stays that way.

dude I am soooooo freaking excited to go to the Bahamas this summer. I'm going on a missions trip with my church, and we're going to work on building and reconstruction stuff ANDDD we're going to an AIDS camp with little kids and I'M SOO EXCITED FOR THATT IM GONNA TAKE SOO MANY PICTURES AHH. i'm looking more foward to capturing the side with devistation and poverty than the beautiful story book side. people need to know about that side.

anyway.
my head hurts. i think i might go rest.

MY CAMERAS FINALLY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESSSS
AND IT WORKS

yeah.
my cameras still not back.
guess i'll be using the old Minolta X700.

edit.:

im thinking of getting extentions.
but im not sure...
im just bored with my hair how it is now.

Every time I read that story again
I wanna run and take the nails out
You remind me that those nails are mine
Once and for all to the end (Hebrews 9:26)

I’m not ready for this
I’m not ready yet
I’m not ready
For this ending
But it’s not over yet
I’ve been fighting against myself
And I’ve torn myself to pieces
I hear You calling, God, I hear You calling
“Stand up, stand up
And spend yourself for Jesus”

Too long have I been chained
I’m ready Jesus—set me free